I couldn’t believe it. My birthday rolled around and I was doing nothing special. Why not? How did this happen? I vowed that every year on my special day I would always do something. Yet a few years after that proclamation and look. No friends around, no birthday trip, no celebrating…nothing.
My friends and I had been planning to do something for my birthday. Unfortunately, life happened, things came up and they couldn’t go. So that left me doing nothing…on my birthday!
At first I wanted to blame them. Flaky. Unreliable. Not a good friend. Can’t even come through for me on my birthday. I need new friends. In fact, I did blame them. You know how much my birthday means to me? Why do you always have “things” coming up? What type of friend are you? Do you even care about me or our friendship?
But the truth was…I couldn’t blame them. It wasn’t their fault. It was all mine.
That was a gigantic pill that I had to swallow and it hurt.
The reality was…
I had been waiting for them to go with me. Waiting on them to make plans with me. Waiting on them to have money. Waiting on them to have vacation time. Waiting on them…waiting on them…waiting on them… Then, when they failed to show up…there I was alone, upset, angry and mad at the world. I was having a pity party all by my lonesome.
When I sat back and really reflected I could see a pattern. I was always waiting. Waiting on someone else so that I could do what I wanted. Because I didn’t want to go alone; I didn’t want to go anywhere by myself. Because I didn’t want to be alone; I was afraid of being by myself.
That year I made a powerful declaration. I was no longer waiting. It was time for me to live my life. It was time for me to have fun. It was time for me to get out there. It was time for me to start doing some things for myself. Even if that meant SOLO or alone.
The following year was one of the most exciting years of my life. My theme word was AWAKENING because I was awakening to me. Awakening to who I was. Awakening to LIVING!!! Awakening to LIFE!!! Looking back, I realize that mountains were the repeating thing that year.
I stepped around my mountain of fears. I drove up a mountain. I slept on a mountain. I found refuge at the mountain. I found sisterhood, connection and meaning at the mountain. I released it at the mountain. I left some things on the mountain. I found love on a mountain. I embraced joy and tranquility at the mountain.
What have you been waiting to do? Where have you been waiting to go? How is it holding you back from LIVING NOW? Make a declaration today that you are no longer waiting. You are going to LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE NOW!